for you i shall wait

how long can i wait

i wait and wait

and its tearing me up inside

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It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you

But when we are apart I feel it too

And no matter what I do I feel the pain

With or without you

Baby I don't understand

Just why we can't be lovers

Things are gettin' out of hand

Tryin' too much but baby we can't win

Let it go

If you want me girl let me know

I am down on my knees

I can't take it anymore

[Chorus]

Baby don't misunderstand

What I'm tryin' to tell ya

In the corner of my mind

Baby it feels like we're running out of time

Let it go

If you want me girl let me know

I am down on my knees

I can't take it anymore

Tearin' up my heart my soul

We're apart I feel it too

And no matter what I do I feel the pain

With or without you

And no matter what I do I feel the pain

With or without you

okay so the second hotel location is screwed up
so sue me
like i know where everything is in this damn place
judge me for all i care
Fuck my miserable life.
i am just feeling miserable right now.
what ever it is
if you think i'm to blame then so be it.
next time i wont even bother doing anything.
fucking thankless job.
no one cares if you do it well
everyone fucks you for screwing up.
Such is the life of me.

Off to vietnam in a couple of hours.
maybe i'll post more when i get there.
right now.
i have not a care in the world but keeping my people safe.

to be needed is an addictive feeling...
but that feeling is temporary
and leaves you wanting more...
so dun expect anything
and maybe you wont fell anything.

its a wonder how ignorant some people are.

but no matter.... i will carry on